It wasn’t until recently, more than a year after officially becoming a Mom, that I embraced the title and felt I owned it. Maybe it’s because around that time Baby Girl really started intentionally using the word “Momma”. Maybe until you hear it come out of your own child’s mouth, it isn’t fully real to you. Maybe it takes them using their own free will to want you – to run to you for a hug and choose you for comfort. I don’t know. But I do know that is one of the sweetest things about being a Mom right now. Hearing her say my name, seeing her face light up when I walk in the door, watching her choose to come sit in my lap, seeing her little arms extended asking to dance with me. It’s the fact that she wants me around her, that she chooses me, that makes my heart leap.
I think about my own Mom often in those moments. Wonder if she felt the same way.
And so Mom: now that I’m all grown up, I know it may seem like I don’t need you anymore. Nothing could be further from the truth. I still want you to talk to, to hang out with, to impart sage advice, to give me a hug, to dance with me. I may not run around anymore, arms outstretched, yelling “Momma!”, but the need is still just as present.
I want you to know, so often, it’s the time we spend together that is my favorite.
Happy Mother’s Day!